There will be no smiley face beside the caption because this will be a very emo post.








I am considered lucky. I came from a family without economic problems. My parents are willing to spend ( waste ) lotsa money as long as I am able to finish my studies and excel academically.


My mother never stops me from buying unnecessary stuffs and sometimes, she's also paying for those stuffs for me. So, what else am I asking for?





I shared my problems with some of my closest friends because that's why we called them friends. Sometimes, they insulted me, they enjoyed spreading fake rumours about me, but I knew that they love me. I told them everything, they said that this is what everyone will experience it because we are still reaching puberty or we are in the stage of puberty. IS THAT TRUE?





I started thinking about my future and everything that's related to me.




I wanna be a pharmacist since I was a child. But, now, I'm not sure about that. I might fail physics or chemistry or biology or add maths for the exam that's coming very soon. Everything will be a no-show including my dream becoming a pharmacist because if I failed any of the subjects, the school will just put me in Art and I gotta buy new textbooks, change the class for my diary and every exercise books.





Sometimes, I wanna be like Hannah. For her, every option is on her hand. She thinks that Science is more than what she can handle ( bullshit ) , the next day, she can just change to Art without worries.


She knew that she might be fired if she did not attend those leadership camps arranged by the upper-sec prefect board. But, she fought for it. Lastly, she managed to attend her church camp by skipping the tiring prefect camp and she's a prefect until the end. Unlike me, actually, I planned to have a trip to Singapore, but lastly, I chose to give up just to attend that ridiculous prefect camp.



I was looking for someone to talk to or sms through my phonebook. Not even a person.

PS:// WTF? I'M IN SET 3 FOR ENG! this's the first time being in set 3. Totally pissed off. Iwas in set 1 for 2 years and set 2 for last year. I'm gonna kill myself.

Good Night.